Cerita tentang dia 3 [Soalan 3]

Sambungan Cerita tentang dia 1 dan 2 [Sile bace 2 post sebelum ini untuk mendapat maklumat awal cerita ini]

‘Well.. okay... let me tell you my story. Yea.. I was born in a Muslim family.. my mom and dad both are Muslims. And.. I was brought up in Islamic family culture.. Everything should be always according to the teaching of Islam. Thank God for that. Anyway.. the specialty about my parents are.. They always encouraged us not to just ‘follow’ the Islamic teaching... but also to understand deeply the teaching or the belief that you are following at... so that.. we will become Muslims who choose to practise the Islamic beliefs, not just blindly follow.. My parents don’t ever want us to be Muslims or to practise Islam just because of them or some kind of family tradition. This somehow made me opened to learn and to study in-depth about my religion as well as others.’

‘Oh, that’s good..’

‘Well.. I started to be serious about the religion matters when I was about sixteen years old.. especially when my dad passed away.. and I was there.. near to him.. seeing him to be buried... really.. in real.... So... I started to really think... especially about the day of Judgement and the Judge on the day of judgement.. which we’ve talked about it just now...’

‘Well, yup.. I believe in ALLAH... the only one GOD to be that Judge on that day of Judgement. But.. I don’t want to just believe that.. without being strongly convinced enough...’

‘Oh yea.. I like that point...! You’ve got to be convinced in order to strongly believe in something.’

Aku tersenyum melihat dia menyampuk dengan penuh semangat.

‘Yup.. so what I did was.... I asked myself... what kind of JUDGE I expect on that day of Judgement... or.. basically... Who can I expect to be the GOD... cause.. of course.... the JUDGE must be the GOD.. no others can be... cause GOD.. must.. oh.. well.... what are the criteria that we could expect in GOD, Karla?

‘Oh... I don’t know.. Maryam..’

‘Try one...’

‘Most Powerful may be..?’

‘Yup.. great.... I want my GOD to be THE MOST POWERFUL GOD... no others EVER SIMILAR like HIM in HIS POWER... cannot be BORN... cannot EVER REST... Always always be there.......... for me to call HIM in anytime in anywhere... in other words, I DON’T WANT GOD to have ANY HUMAN LIMITATION...!’

‘Yes, that’s made sense! I want that to be in a GOD as well...’

‘So.. honestly... after I have studied others religion... absolutely... I can’t accept others’ description about their GODS... because... you know.... they said... the GOD rest (check it out in the BIBLE) the GOD called for help (in Hindus as well as in Christianity).... and, the GODS are born.... from a woman womb.....and also can give birth??? Oh.............. I absolutely cannot accept those points of views...... honestly....’

‘But... I don’t know... May be you can, Karla?’

Dia tercengang, wajahnya berkerut. Tak lama kemudian, dia menggeleng-gelengkan kepalanya.

‘No.. cannot... GOD must be special; no others should be similar like HIM or that entity...’

Aku tersenyum. Alhamdulillah. Meskipun dia agak 'confuse' untuk menggunakan ganti nama apa untuk TUHANnya.. tapi, insya-allah... amat kelihatan di wajahnya, dia faham... dia faham tentang SATU KUASA itu... dan ciri-ciri-Nya...

‘Okay, well.. second thing that I want my GOD to be is..... HE is the ONLY ONE that no others can be SIMILAR like HIM in anyway all the time. In other words... I don’t my GOD to be like HUMAN look... like Jesus...... or Buddha.... or the Hindus Gods.............. For me, GOD cannot be like that.......... can NEVER be like that........... cause............ GOD should be so SPECIAL........ NOTHING others SIMILAR like HIM.... HE is the GREATEST...... He creates HUMANKIND.. WHY should HE has the same look like HUMAN??? NEVER.. EVER....!!’

‘I rather not to SEE HIM now... because HE IS SO SPECIAL.... my human EYES can NEVER see HIM.... but.... HE is always THERE....’

‘What about you, Karla? You can agree me not... It’s just what I personally expect my GOD to be.’

Sekali lagi, dia tercengang dan wajahnya berkerut. Kali ini, dia segera menggeleng-gelengkan kepalanya.

‘No.. cannot...’

Sambil mengangguk-angguk;

‘Yet, I totally agree with you... it’s just make sense that GOD must not be in human look... yea... I agree with that, Maryam..... I do agree....’

‘Okay, KARLA.. basically.... the third thing I want my GOD to have is HE IS ONE. No OTHERS. Because HE is the MOST POWERFUL.. HE needs NO ONE.............. to be with HIM....... and He ALONE administrate the WHOLE WORLD.. including my personal life... as well as each and every human kind... HE is EVERYTHING....... MOST GRACIOUS.. MOST COMPASSIONATE... MOST POWERFUL.. MOST.. or ALL-KNOWING............... which means I need not to tell HIM what I feel.. cause HE KNOWS everything about me......... HE is THE ONLY ONE that I SEEK in anytime.. in everywhere.. I don’t want to be CONFUSED... I just want ONE and ONLY GOD who has Every BEST ELEMENTS with HIM...’

‘Would you agree with me, Karla? You definitely can disagree if you want... no problem at all..’

‘No.. I agree.. I totally agree...’

Dia diam, dan memandang ke hadapan... seakan merenung jauh.

‘Everything you’ve said is just made sense to me........ why should I deny.....’

‘And.. Of course... Karla.. I should say that..... all those criteria of GOD... just fit ONE GOD... the GOD or the Judge that has been well-described in the ISLAMIC teaching.......ALLAH (All praises be to HIM only).’

‘Indeed, HE is ONE. He describes HIMSLEF as the ONLY GOD... No one can see HIM as He is SIMILAR to Nothing.............. NEVER be BORN and what more to give birth. NEVER REST and NEVER has any HUMAN LIMITATION... HE is the GREATEST... HE is THE ONE.’

Dia mengangguk-ngangguk. Dia hanya diam dan merenung jauh.

Sungguh, Hanya Allah Maha Tahu aku ingin sekali meneruskan diskusi ini. Ingin sekali aku membukakan padanya lagi kitab suci Al-Quran untuk dia melihat betapa ALLAH menceritakan siapa DIA dengan Jelas dan Terang sekali.

Tetapi masa begitu mencemburui. Saya tidak mahu dia terlewat dek kerana saya, dan kerana belajar tentang ‘agama’. Saya beriman bahawa Islam sukakan disiplin dan Islam sukakan kejujuran, maka saya segera berkata;

‘Karla.. I would like to tell you more... and I know you want me to do so, don’t you?’

‘Yes, absolutely... I want to know more.. Maryam....’

‘But, Karla.. it’s time. You need to go to your class, don’t you?’

‘Oh..... yea... I forgot about it at all......!!’

‘Yea... I know... I’m sorry, dear... taking your time..’

‘Oh no.. it’s okay...... Oh Maryam.. I want to know more... I want to....’

‘Well, we will continue if you want.... I’m more than happy to do so.....’

‘Okay.. I will...’

‘Oh yea.. before you go... I want to give you this verse... you might ask you Omanis friends what does it mean........’

‘Oh, that’s great....!!’

Aku pun menuliskannya ayat Surah Al-mukminun, ayat 115 dan 116 dalam bahasa Arab yang maksudnya;

‘Maka apakah kamu mengira, bahawa sesungguhnya Kami menciptakan kamu secara main-main (saja), dan bahawa kamu tidak akan dikembalikan kepada Kami? Maka Maha Tinggi Allah, Raja yang sebenarnya: tidak ada Tuhan selain Dia. Tuhan (yang mempunyai ‘arasy yang mulia.’

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Cerita tentang dia 2 [Soalan 2]

Sambungan Cerita tentang dia 1 [Sile bace post sebelum ini untuk mendapat maklumat awal cerita ini]

‘Okay, Karla. Well, honestly I don’t really know how to start with.. So, to start with... can I know how far you perspectives towards religion or may be.. GOD?’

‘Oh, okay.. well.. yup.. I was brought up in a so-called Christian culture... But, you know... I am not really into it.. lots of things made me so... But, I believe that there is a POWER... but I don’t know who or what it is.... So, that’s why I did not consider myself as Christian or what so ever... ’

Aku mengangguk.

‘Aisey... thank you, Karla. Well.. what about death..? Do you think that everyone will die peacefully and that’s it.. nothing after the death?

‘Well, that’s the problem.. I remembered what you said in the class. And, you know.. I love it.. cause it was quite similar like mine... err... you know ‘Karma’? where they said we will always get what we do.. life’s like a mirror.. so, i think... yea.. may be... death will be the same.. we might get what we did after death.. may be... yea.. honestly.. i don’t know.. but... why not we believe it, isn’t?’

‘Aha... but Karla... I’m sorry.... can I know.....whether you think that everyone will die peacefully and that’s it.. nothing after the death? In other words, do you think that does who do bad or cruel things in this world will end up the same as those who do good things when they die?’

‘Oh yea.. I’m sorry... well... No, definitely not. If that’s happen, it’s not fair.’

Jawabnya dengan yakin sambil tersenyum (mungkin kerana kelakar dengan dirinya yang tidak menjawab soalan saya).

‘So, do you mean... to be fair.. there must be a day, where all of us... should be judge..? According to what we did in this world?’

Dia diam berfikir, wajahnya berkerut.

‘Yes, that’s make sense!! Oh... Well...I should say like that...shouldn’t I?’

‘And, Karla.. It’s okay for to say anything.. just be honest to yourself....’

‘Aha.. I think, It does really make sense for me!’ Jawabnya dengan yakin lagi.

‘Do you think... the day.. of course.... after death....... and the Judge... of course.. must be the ONE who is the MOST POWERFUL?’

‘Well...yea... I think so... that’s make sense again.... but, Oh.. I don’t know... I really don’t know Maryam....’

Wajahnya berkerut, benar-benar berkerut. Saya bilang, dia amat terkejut kerana saat ini dia harus akui sesuatu yang dia tidak ingin akui sebelum ini.

‘It’s okay, Karla.. it’s okay.. Don’t be panic. Slowly... I just want us to think together... cause..... you know... sometimes.... we just ignore... things that we should know... and we should find out..... dont’ we?’

Aku tersenyum. ‘Questionings really lead people to think. Hikmah belajar tajuk Questioning dalam kelas Mike. Alhamdulillah.’ Dalam hatiku tak henti-henti memanjatkan puji dan syukur pada-Nya. Benarlah.. sungguh ISLAM benar-benar adalah Deen Fitrah... sesuai dengan JIWA... sesuai dengan akal manusia yang jujur berfikir..... dan merenung.. cuma kebanyakan mereka.. terperangkap.. dalam rutin dunia seharian.... tidak sempat berfikir apalagi merenung.... dan apabila.. di ‘scaffold’ begini... hati yang lembut dah ikhlas... tersentak....

‘Are you okay, Karla? Do you want me to continue.. or.. we can stop if you want...’

‘Oh, no..no.. I’m fine.. it’s okay, Maryam... what you said just really make sense.. Yea... Nothing wrong.. it’s just me.. Well.. you can tell me more, Maryam.. I want to know more... ’

Alhamdulillah.

‘Well, Karla... those thoughts lead me to think more about myself as well.. I have no surprise if to see your reaction... cause... that’s what I did as well... Anyway.. you know.. before I go into more details.. I want you to see one verse in this book....’

Aku menunjukkan bahagian buku Never Plead Ignorance (by Harun Yahya) yang terdapat dalamnya ayat Allah yang bermaksud;

Or do those who perpetrate evil deeds suppose that We will make them like those who believe and do right actions, so that their lives and deaths will be the same? How bad their judgement is! Allah created the heavens and earth with truth so that every self might be repaid for what it earned and they will not be wronged. (Surat al-Jathiyah: 21-22)

Sebelum dia sempat mula membacanya, aku jelaskan padanya..

‘This is actually from the Holy Quran... have you heard about Al-Quraan?’

‘Oh? No (never heard about Quran)..’

‘Aisey... well... Just a brief info for you... In Islam, Al-Quran is actually the word of GOD... ALLAH.... that we believe the ONE and ONLY GOD... it’s like what He wants us to know.. about HIM.. about all sorts of thing... well... it’s okay... nevermind... just have a look on this verse... and say what you think.... please...’

Karla mengangguk-ngangguk, dan terus membaca terjemahan ayat tersebut.

‘Oh.. no.. no... it says exactly what you’ve said Maryam... It’s asking the same question! Is everyone is going to be the same when they die.....? oh...’

‘Yup...’ Aku mengangguk-ngangguk sambil tersenyum melihat wajahnya yang penuh kekesimaan.

‘And... that’s why I asked you.. cause.. it’s being asked by the ONE GOD that I believe is the GREATEST one ever.. How bad our judgement is if we think that everyone will get the same rewards... in regards of what they did in this world.... don’t you think so?’

‘Oh, that’s really true... really true...Maryam..’

‘Well, that’s one of the reason... I love to be in this religion.. ISLAM... You want to know more?’

‘Oh yes.. absolutely..’

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Cerita tentang dia 1 [Soalan 1]

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.

Ya ALLAh.. bantulah aku untuk berkongsi lagi di laman ini..

Sedar tak sedar, hampir 3 minggu saya tidak mencoret apa-apa di laman ini.

Subhanallah.

Tidak ada perkataan lain harus saya katakan selain ‘MAAF’.

MAAF kerana tak pandai membahagikan masa dengan baik.

MAAF kerana tidak atas kelemahan diri yang tak teratasi lagi.

MAAF kerana tak menunaikan hak anda sebagai pembaca.

MAAF dan MAAF.

Semoga anda sudi memaafkan saya, dan semoga ALLAH sudi mengampuni saya.

Dan pada hari ini, saya bertekad.. Insya-allah, saya mesti berkongsi.. dengan semua di sini.. tentang satu lagi pengalaman yang diizin ALLAH untuk saya lalui. Insya-allah, moga-moga perkongsian pengalaman ini akan bermanfaat untuk saya dan kalian.

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Pernah anda menonton video saudara Joshua Evan, bagaimana dia dipimpin Allah kepada ISLAM?

Suka saya petik kata-katanya;

‘Lots of people out there are like me before, looking for the lights. Please... share the lights with them. You know how??? By becoming the true MUSLIMs! Nothing else, JUST become the real MUSLIMs, believe me you will lighten up the people around you.. insya-allah.’

Bagaimana pula dengan cerita saudara Hamzah Yusuf? Apa yang membuat dia mula terfikir tentang keperluan untuk beragama?

Antara kata-katanya;

‘I experienced seeing death few times since I was at a quite young age. DEATH made me pondered a lot. I started to think, why am I here and why? What’s my end?’

Tentu saja kalian pernah menonton video saudara Ruben Abu Bakr? Betapa kehebatan ALAM ini menundukkan Egonya untuk dia benar-benar mengakui hakikat keWUJUDan TUHAN.. yang selama ini, dia masih ‘terfikir-fikir’.

Ya, secara peribadi, kisah-kisah ini amat amat mengesani hati saya dari pelbagai sudut. Dan, Insya-allah.. perkongsian saya kali ini terkait dengan ketiga-tiga kisah mereka tersebut. Alhamdulillah.

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Kisahnya bermula begini.

Sejak akak-akak tersayang pulang ke Malaysia, Bait Nurul Jannah punya satu kekosongan. Dan, Alhamdulillah, awal Februari yang lalu, kami dimaklumkan akan menerima seorang teman rumah yang baru yang akan bersama dengan kami selama sebulan kerana mengikuti kursus-pendek anjuran university kami. Menurut ‘cleaner’ kesayangan kami, Sue, nama teman baru kami itu, Karla. Tetapi kami tidak dapat meneka dari Negara mana dia, apalagi bangsanya atau agamanya.

Bagaimanapun, Alhamdulillah, kami berazam untuk berbuat yang terbaik sebagai teman rumah Muslim. Kami serumah telah berpakat untuk memberikan hak yang sewajarnya kepada dia agar dia selesa tinggal serumah dengan 3 orang Muslim dari Malaysia ini.

Seperti masa yang dimaklumkan, Karla pun muncul di rumah kami, bersama dua orang teman senegaranya. Alhamdulillah pada ketika itu, kami baru sahaja ingin turun masak untuk makan malam. Kami saling berkenalan. Rupanya dia asal dari benua Amerika Latin iaitu Chile. Dia berbahasa Spanish dan sangat ramah dan ceria. Alhamdulillah. Memandangkan kami memang ingin memasak, maka kami terus mempelawa dia dan teman-temanya, Kamila dan Ferrnanda untuk makan bersama. Menu malam itu adalah ‘tomyam udang’ dan ‘telur bistik’. Alhamdulillah, mereka gembira untuk mencuba makanan dari negara dan budaya baru.

Mulai hari itu, Karla menjadi sebahagian dari kami, terutamanya saya sebagai teman serumah yang tinggal separas.

Minggu pertama, Karla dan teman-temannya sibuk dengan kursus-pendek mereka. Saya dan teman-teman serumah juga meneruskan hidup kami sebagai seorang pelajar Muslim TESL. Bekejar-kejar dengan assignment yang nak dihantar minggu itu. Tetapi, Alhamdulillah, kami saling bertegur sapa setiap kali bertemu. Karla orangnya ceria, jadi saya secara peribadi amat senang dengan dia. Tambahan, kerana biliknya dan saya sama tingkat, maka kami sering berinteraksi (senyum dan bersembang-sembang) secara sambil-sambil; sebelum masuk ke bilik atau bilik air, sambil menyediakan makanan dan lain-lain. Yang paling saya suka dengan Karla seminggu saya berkenalan dengannya ialah dia ‘pembersih’ dan ‘jujur’. Dua sifat yang pada saya sepatutnya dimiliki seorang Muslim, dan Alhamdulillah dia telah memilikinya. Dalam diam, saya mendoakan ‘kebaikan’ padanya.

Oh ya. Dalam minggu itu juga, ada satu peristiwa yang menjadi pencetus fikiran Karla dan juga saya secara peribadi. Terdapat satu hari dalam jadual Karla dan teman-temannya yang melibatkan warga TESL Year 3, iaitu kelas saya. Dengan izin Allah, dalam kelas tersebut, terkeluar isu ‘pandangan kita tentang kematian’ hasil dari diskusi tentang satu ‘poem’. Seperti biasa, isu kematian bukanlah isu popular di dalam budaya Inggeris atau umunya mereka yang non-believers. Namun, Alhamdulillah, ketika itu, respond pelajar-pelajar Muslim tentang isu itu sangat baik. Saya secara peribadi mengungkapkan perasaan saya tentang kematian dengan perkataan yang lebih kurang bunyinya begini;

‘In Islam, we believe death is just a transition process of a person from this world to another world. The life in hereafter world will be according to what you did in this world, which means this world is just the place you sow all the good things.. and there.. in hereafter.. is the place we will get the reward for what we have sowed. And, this notion always encourages us to do the best for our life in this world.. so that we will get the best in the hereafter, insya-allah...

So, for us, death does not mean the end of your life, yet it is just the beginning of another life.. and.. believe me... Good Muslims... love death... and see death as something joyful.. as we want to... to see what GOD gives us for what we’ve done in this world.. and more beautiful.... cause we want to see HIM, GOD the Almigthy...’

Alhamdulillah. Tanpa saya sedar, dalam diam, sungguh dia ingat ungkapan-ungkapan dan dalam diam dia amat-amat berfikir.

Masa berlalu dan masuk minggu kedua bagi Karla. Hari-hari berlalu seperti biasa. Ada masa kami berborak-borak tentang hal-hal seharian dan ade masa kami hanya berbalas senyuman. Satu hari, dengan izin Allah, saya dan Karla meluangkan masa ‘branch’ bersama. Mungkin kerana telah mesra, kami sembang pelbagai perkara. Tibanya, dia berkata,

‘I see you and your friends are really good in practising what you believe... which is really rare for that to happen in my culture. Often, I see people seek religion or God just when they are in worry or hardship.. Which I don’t really agree..! I love to see that (practise what we believe) in you guys.. really!’

Saya terkesima. Dalam hati, segera saya berzikir dan beristighfar, bimbang hadir pula rasa ujub atau apa-apa yang sama waktu dengannya. Dengan izin Allah, Allah ilhamkan saya,

‘Oh, thank you.. I din expect you to notice that.. but, Thank God for that.’

‘Yea.. you know.. it’s not easy for a person to commit to a belief and really act according to that belief.. isn’t it? And, I’m really happy if I have the chance to meet those persons..!’

‘Oh, really? That’s good.. which honestly.. i should say.. strange.. as compared to people I met before..’

‘Yea.. I know.. most people said me weird.. and even weird when I said, I’m happy to live with Muslims.. cause.. most my friends said, ‘Muslims are boring!’’

‘Boring?’

‘Yea.. you know.. you don’t drink.. you don’t go to clubbing... so people said it’s like a boring life.. but, for me, that’s not true.. I see you are happy in your life.. and I know I’m happy to be with you..!’

Saya tersenyum mendengar kalamnya, sambil memuji Tuhan Pencipta kami berdua.

‘Ya Rabb, kau pertemukan aku dengan seorang manusia seperti dia.. apa hikmahnya ya..?’ saya berbisik pada diri sendiri sambil terus bermunajat.

Melihat masa yang ‘limited’, saya hentikan sembang kami dengan satu soalan.

‘You know... don’t you think that the belief that they believe.. must be unshakable... and really strong... that’s why the believers of that belief can really act according to what they believe... don;t you think so?’

‘Yup..! ahaa..’

‘Would you like to know our belief? Or my belief personally...??’

‘Oh, that’s great..! I want to.. if you don;t mind..’

‘I would never mind that.. and I would love to share it with you one day.. if both of us happen to be free... insya-allah (God’s willing)’

‘Great! I’ll wait for that!’

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Kemudian, masa berlalu. Kami jarang bertembung memandangkan jadual masing-masing penuh dengan kelas. Meskipun begitu, saya sentiasa ingat janji saya pada dia. Cuma saya tidak pasti kesungguhannya. Satu pagi, ketika saya sedang menyediakan sarapan.

‘Hai Maryam! How are you...? We hardly see each other recently!’

‘Oh, Hi Karla! I’m good.. How are you..? Yup, both of us were really busy this week, didn’t we?’

‘Yup.. very! Anyway, Maryam, I’ve been thinking about your question. When are you going to share ‘what you want to share’ with me? Are you free today?’

Aku tersenyum.

‘Oh, Karla. I’ve been waiting for you to ask that question.. cause you know... I don’t want to force you to listen to me... but, since you still really want to know.. I have no problem at all.. especially today. I have no class at all! How about you?’

‘I have class at the noon, about 3 o’clock. I don’t mind, Maryam... yet, i’m waiting for that!’

‘Subhanallah, sungguh-sungguhnya dia,’ detik hati saya yang masih terkesima.

‘Ya Allah, mudahkan urusanku berkongsi tentang ni’mat deen-Mu ini..’

Tak lama kemudian, di bilik saya yang lapang, dengan tenang dan lafaz Basmallah, saya pun duduk memulakan perkongsian.

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